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Sunday, June 26, 2005
The last day of the holidaysssss, and i spent the night having a fantastic dinner at spaggheddis with Zhangkhan, although we were in quite a hurry to get out of there because we seriously looked very gay and we were drawing a lot of attention to ourselves. And we weren't full because it was so pricey we could only order one main course, so we went to KFC and had another 2 piece chicken meal each. Pigs indeed, but satisfied pigs.
Oh oh! And when we got to Orchard MRT we saw this BEAUTIFUL caucasian woman, seriously beautiful, not chio, not pretty but beautiful. She was probably in her early 30's, but her features were still incredibly sharp and attractive she seriously looked like a better version of nicole kidman! I saw her first then i told Zhangrui as she was walking away and he actually ran to chase up to her to get a look at her lol! But man she was really very easy on the eyes.
Ah yes and another thing i wanted to blog about a few days ago but didn't have the time to, on Friday after training i was on the bus back home, and seriously, this pissed me off a lot, there was this fat mom with her fat son and they both got on the 410 at the interchange where there was a long line so obviously it would be very crowded in the bus and the mom took one whole seat sitting at the edge and the son took another right behind her also sitting at the edge! They just deprived 2 people of seats when they are RELATED and could be sitting together. What the heck?! That really got me very irritated. And what's worse, i was sitting on the seat 2 rows from the back next to the window, and 2 stops later, in comes an old woman who was lugging loads of bags and a bag of luggage(don't look at me, i dunno), but nobody gives way to her. And those two don't even move in and ask her to sit! Jeez i have to get off my seat walk all the way to the middle of the bus carrying my gi and my bag and ask her to take my seat, and what do you know, the old lady says "wo3 bu4 hao3 yi4 si4 lah..." But i finally persuaded her to take the seat. bu hao yi si what...those two should be the ones who should be bu hao yi si, not you my dear elderly citizen. Seriously, how do you expect your son to have good behaviour when you're teaching him to be so inconsiderate?! Geez!!! I really wanted to tell her off but i didn't. Maybe i should've huh?
Anyway...a new term a new day a new piece of homework. I'm going to try my best to concentrate on my work this semester especially once nat schs is over, i really wanna get good results in my last semester in RI. Well, wish me luck and pray for me please all of you, i need God by my side to help me through this time and keep me away from temptation.
God bless everyone in the start of school!
Oh oh! And when we got to Orchard MRT we saw this BEAUTIFUL caucasian woman, seriously beautiful, not chio, not pretty but beautiful. She was probably in her early 30's, but her features were still incredibly sharp and attractive she seriously looked like a better version of nicole kidman! I saw her first then i told Zhangrui as she was walking away and he actually ran to chase up to her to get a look at her lol! But man she was really very easy on the eyes.
Ah yes and another thing i wanted to blog about a few days ago but didn't have the time to, on Friday after training i was on the bus back home, and seriously, this pissed me off a lot, there was this fat mom with her fat son and they both got on the 410 at the interchange where there was a long line so obviously it would be very crowded in the bus and the mom took one whole seat sitting at the edge and the son took another right behind her also sitting at the edge! They just deprived 2 people of seats when they are RELATED and could be sitting together. What the heck?! That really got me very irritated. And what's worse, i was sitting on the seat 2 rows from the back next to the window, and 2 stops later, in comes an old woman who was lugging loads of bags and a bag of luggage(don't look at me, i dunno), but nobody gives way to her. And those two don't even move in and ask her to sit! Jeez i have to get off my seat walk all the way to the middle of the bus carrying my gi and my bag and ask her to take my seat, and what do you know, the old lady says "wo3 bu4 hao3 yi4 si4 lah..." But i finally persuaded her to take the seat. bu hao yi si what...those two should be the ones who should be bu hao yi si, not you my dear elderly citizen. Seriously, how do you expect your son to have good behaviour when you're teaching him to be so inconsiderate?! Geez!!! I really wanted to tell her off but i didn't. Maybe i should've huh?
Anyway...a new term a new day a new piece of homework. I'm going to try my best to concentrate on my work this semester especially once nat schs is over, i really wanna get good results in my last semester in RI. Well, wish me luck and pray for me please all of you, i need God by my side to help me through this time and keep me away from temptation.
God bless everyone in the start of school!
1 Year Anniversary at 8:37 PM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
I just realised how incredibly busy i am going to be next month... First priority is always going to be Judo National Schools, we are going to win that B' Div title for the first time in 10 years, we've trained so hard and our batch is going to be the champions for the second year running. Prelim round is on the 30th of June man that's like a week away...i can't say i'm not nervous, i'm always nervous when i step onto that dojo, but i'm going to have my game plan all planned out before me, i'm going to do the mental skills training that Mr. Eng taught us and nothing is going to phase me again. I am not going to blank out again. I will know exactly what i'm going to do, when i have to do it, and i will win every single match i take part in, no more stupid mistakes.
Second on the list is DRAMA FESTE!!! Yes i am acting. No do not laugh. Yes come down if you want. No do not throw tomatoes. Yes i am in buckley. No i am not going to tell you my script. Anyway we're a little screwed up right now the script isn't really finished yet and we only have about a month left to do it and rehearse so it's gonna be pretty tight. Another load on muh mind baybeeeeee...
Thirdly! RIPB WORK! When Mr. Lim showed us the schedule for next term i seriously almost freaked out and died on the spot. There's so many things we need to do...my gosh i'm seriously going to drown in work...
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST. SCHOOLWORK!!! MUST DO WELL THIS TERM! MUST GET GOOD GPA! MUST MUST! Well at least i finished most of my homework...only got Assignment 7 and the chinese book left to read, can finish by Saturday lah. Phew. Well, life's gonna be hectic, but as long as i have God and my friends around me, everything will be fine. Whenever i get stressed and feel really depressed, call Zhangrui up and there'll be no more mess. The Chinaman is funny, the Chinaman is nice, he maketh me laugh, when i joke about China rice. Ok fine i shall not complete it even though i actually wrote a couple more lines about it, lol, i shall not be so bad to the China. The China shall shoot missiles at me and i shall be dying. Yesh. Anyway, i be bored today, so i be doing quzziess!!!
Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Wooooooo samurai!! The last samurai!! I liked that movie. And hey, people always tell me i look Japanese anyway, so i guess i can pull it off yeah? ;)
In your eyes, people see love... You're constantly
around people who love and adore you, or you're
the one spreading the love! You put passion
into everything you do and the results end up
great! You love to hang out with your friends,
go to the mall, and just have a good time in
general. Your sanctuary would just be being
able to be around other people. You would
rarely be found by yourself because you're a
very sociable person and enjoy all the company
you can get. However, despite the amound of
love you have to give to others, it can also be
your downfall. Sometimes you're just a tad over
protective over the things/people you love. But
hey! Who can blame you for marking your
territory? Your lover is extremely lucky to
have you because many others are probably
dieing to be with you, yet alone get a chance
to talk to you ^-^ Continue spreading the love
and be loved :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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Oohlala, i kinda like this one nieheheheh. But i must say it quite hit the nail with the hammer. I dunno i've always been very affectionate with my close friends(not the male ones of course, guys don't really appreciate hugs from other guys, i know i don't) and my family, there's a lot of hugs and kisses that go around in my family during birthdays, holidays, Christmas, the birth of our Lord, etc. And hey i always liked it, and a big hug is in store for my bro who's coming back on the 29th!!! WOOT!!! Well, mom always taught us to be loving and affectionate, i guess it's the brought up, and as God says, Christians should be characterised by love, so i guess i'm doing ok ;)
Just a big shout out to all you guys and gals who've been with my through times of good and bad, sticking by my side as my pillars of support all this while, i really appreciate it and i love each and every one of you. God bless!
Second on the list is DRAMA FESTE!!! Yes i am acting. No do not laugh. Yes come down if you want. No do not throw tomatoes. Yes i am in buckley. No i am not going to tell you my script. Anyway we're a little screwed up right now the script isn't really finished yet and we only have about a month left to do it and rehearse so it's gonna be pretty tight. Another load on muh mind baybeeeeee...
Thirdly! RIPB WORK! When Mr. Lim showed us the schedule for next term i seriously almost freaked out and died on the spot. There's so many things we need to do...my gosh i'm seriously going to drown in work...
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST. SCHOOLWORK!!! MUST DO WELL THIS TERM! MUST GET GOOD GPA! MUST MUST! Well at least i finished most of my homework...only got Assignment 7 and the chinese book left to read, can finish by Saturday lah. Phew. Well, life's gonna be hectic, but as long as i have God and my friends around me, everything will be fine. Whenever i get stressed and feel really depressed, call Zhangrui up and there'll be no more mess. The Chinaman is funny, the Chinaman is nice, he maketh me laugh, when i joke about China rice. Ok fine i shall not complete it even though i actually wrote a couple more lines about it, lol, i shall not be so bad to the China. The China shall shoot missiles at me and i shall be dying. Yesh. Anyway, i be bored today, so i be doing quzziess!!!
Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.
I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.
What type of teenager are you?
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Jeez a lifeguard? How many beaches are there in Singapore man...but hey doctor always appealed to me, especially a pediatrician, i just love kids and babies so much, it'll be a joy to be around them the whole day.
Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.
What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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I must say that this is pretty accurate, i always feel that it's alright to make mistakes, as long as we pick ourselves up and don't make the same ones again, we learn from them and they make us stronger. Which is why i really like the phrase Batman's father said to him in the movie. Why do we fall son? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.
Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Wooooooo samurai!! The last samurai!! I liked that movie. And hey, people always tell me i look Japanese anyway, so i guess i can pull it off yeah? ;)
In your eyes, people see love... You're constantly
around people who love and adore you, or you're
the one spreading the love! You put passion
into everything you do and the results end up
great! You love to hang out with your friends,
go to the mall, and just have a good time in
general. Your sanctuary would just be being
able to be around other people. You would
rarely be found by yourself because you're a
very sociable person and enjoy all the company
you can get. However, despite the amound of
love you have to give to others, it can also be
your downfall. Sometimes you're just a tad over
protective over the things/people you love. But
hey! Who can blame you for marking your
territory? Your lover is extremely lucky to
have you because many others are probably
dieing to be with you, yet alone get a chance
to talk to you ^-^ Continue spreading the love
and be loved :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
brought to you by Quizilla
Oohlala, i kinda like this one nieheheheh. But i must say it quite hit the nail with the hammer. I dunno i've always been very affectionate with my close friends(not the male ones of course, guys don't really appreciate hugs from other guys, i know i don't) and my family, there's a lot of hugs and kisses that go around in my family during birthdays, holidays, Christmas, the birth of our Lord, etc. And hey i always liked it, and a big hug is in store for my bro who's coming back on the 29th!!! WOOT!!! Well, mom always taught us to be loving and affectionate, i guess it's the brought up, and as God says, Christians should be characterised by love, so i guess i'm doing ok ;)
Just a big shout out to all you guys and gals who've been with my through times of good and bad, sticking by my side as my pillars of support all this while, i really appreciate it and i love each and every one of you. God bless!
1 Year Anniversary at 4:58 PM
1 Year Anniversary at 4:41 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Don't ask me why i'm blogging at...2am in the morning, i'm just a little bummed right now, so i'm relieving stress by blogging. Yay.
If a week could ever be said to be bittersweet, this would be it. So many good things, so many bad. The week started off with the dreaded TRAINING CAMP which lasted 3 days and 3 nights which involved us running about 20x400m altogether, and covering more than 10km doing all sorts of various activities including carrying people in different positions and walking 100m x many sets and jumping hopping running zig-zagging etc. etc. And of course we had our 3 Judo trainings a day after the morning PTs...involving lots and lots of throwing which gave my abrasion all over my body. I turned from white to red in 48 hours...and which really sucked a lot especially during randori(sparring) cos' your skin literally burns and your gi is rough...and sticks to your skin which makes it feel like someone is just rubbing sandpaper over it. The abrasion is definitely the worst part of training...But all in all i enjoyed it, i always feel a lot of success and achievement whenever a training camp is over. Seriously, it takes a real fighter to be able to go through all this and i'm proud of each and every Judoka who did. There isn't a second team in the entire school that i would rather be a part of. Our history, our friendship, our team bonding, our crazy faggoty trainings and our team spirit is rivalled by nobody and as i close my days as an RI boy, i really feel so proud to have trained, sweat, cried(yes i cried after sec 1 training camp) and bled with each and every one of you. It has really molded me into a totally different person through my four years and that is something nobody can ever take away from us, the experience of all we've been through.
After that i got back to home sweet home, just in time to celebrate my birthday. YAY! I decided to have a very small thing this year, didn't want lots of people over, i just wanted my small clique where we could talk laugh and joke about everything we wanted to cos' it's people who are so close and we trust. Basically the toushies, Mitchell, and a couple of the seniors that i've been really close to since they were my PSLs and all and they're out of the army. Sorry i didn't have a big thing lah. I know all of you were dying to come and see my handsome face but i let you all down :'( Ok i promise i'll have something bigger next year or the year after ok? Ok. :D Anyway yeah that was good stuff, we had LOADS of food. And Jeremy that pig polished off the whole pot, i mean POT, not bowl, but POT, of curry by himself... But it was really nice, just talking crap, having fun, playing DotA together, bridge(where i tricked zhangrui into believing that he was my partner for 9 tricks and he didn't know it!) and trying very hard to sleep with 7 stinky guys in 2 rooms. Ouch. Man sweet sixteen, no need to sneak into NC16 shows anymore MWAHAHAHAH GARRY!!!! You little boi boi. Awwwwww :p
Anyway it carried on with the rest of them leaving in the morning and Mitchell and Garry staying behind, and us ending up going for prata. And after that Mitchell proceeding to dump me and Garry to go out with his girlfriend, and me and Garry being gay faggots and watching Batman begins together. Which was actually very good. But it still doesn't change the fact that two guys watching a movie is damn gay. DEM GAY AH!!! And then Garry proceeds to remind me of the fact that we only have 1 week before school starts again. And i don't even feel like i've had a holiday...and that we have a shitload of undone homework and i am so screwed. PIAH TIME AHHHHHH!!!! BANZAI!!!!
But what really really sucks is the entrepreneurship competition...Usually each round ends at 12noon, the game is run, all our decisions are put through, then it's up again for the next round at 3PM, so being dilligent boys, we went in straight at 3PM, made the decisions and submitted, only to realise that at 4+PM, they put up an announcement saying that the game will be reset at 8PM and we will have until 12noon of the next day to submit. But since we already did, we didn't bother going back to double check and in the end we got so damn screwed...and we're now in debt and had to take emergency loans and all sorts of crap. I'm seriously very pissed off at the admin, the whole game has been very buggy and crappy, and we made it into the second round top of our group by dunnohowmuch thrashing all the others in the group and now due to this crap we're like dead last. What the hell... Seriously mun, i be pissed off.
Well that's about it for this week...been a looonggg hard week and next week is all set up for power piahing so i can finish off my homework. I really do need a holiday...i haven't had one for...12months now...jeez... :'( gimme a hug.
If a week could ever be said to be bittersweet, this would be it. So many good things, so many bad. The week started off with the dreaded TRAINING CAMP which lasted 3 days and 3 nights which involved us running about 20x400m altogether, and covering more than 10km doing all sorts of various activities including carrying people in different positions and walking 100m x many sets and jumping hopping running zig-zagging etc. etc. And of course we had our 3 Judo trainings a day after the morning PTs...involving lots and lots of throwing which gave my abrasion all over my body. I turned from white to red in 48 hours...and which really sucked a lot especially during randori(sparring) cos' your skin literally burns and your gi is rough...and sticks to your skin which makes it feel like someone is just rubbing sandpaper over it. The abrasion is definitely the worst part of training...But all in all i enjoyed it, i always feel a lot of success and achievement whenever a training camp is over. Seriously, it takes a real fighter to be able to go through all this and i'm proud of each and every Judoka who did. There isn't a second team in the entire school that i would rather be a part of. Our history, our friendship, our team bonding, our crazy faggoty trainings and our team spirit is rivalled by nobody and as i close my days as an RI boy, i really feel so proud to have trained, sweat, cried(yes i cried after sec 1 training camp) and bled with each and every one of you. It has really molded me into a totally different person through my four years and that is something nobody can ever take away from us, the experience of all we've been through.
After that i got back to home sweet home, just in time to celebrate my birthday. YAY! I decided to have a very small thing this year, didn't want lots of people over, i just wanted my small clique where we could talk laugh and joke about everything we wanted to cos' it's people who are so close and we trust. Basically the toushies, Mitchell, and a couple of the seniors that i've been really close to since they were my PSLs and all and they're out of the army. Sorry i didn't have a big thing lah. I know all of you were dying to come and see my handsome face but i let you all down :'( Ok i promise i'll have something bigger next year or the year after ok? Ok. :D Anyway yeah that was good stuff, we had LOADS of food. And Jeremy that pig polished off the whole pot, i mean POT, not bowl, but POT, of curry by himself... But it was really nice, just talking crap, having fun, playing DotA together, bridge(where i tricked zhangrui into believing that he was my partner for 9 tricks and he didn't know it!) and trying very hard to sleep with 7 stinky guys in 2 rooms. Ouch. Man sweet sixteen, no need to sneak into NC16 shows anymore MWAHAHAHAH GARRY!!!! You little boi boi. Awwwwww :p
Anyway it carried on with the rest of them leaving in the morning and Mitchell and Garry staying behind, and us ending up going for prata. And after that Mitchell proceeding to dump me and Garry to go out with his girlfriend, and me and Garry being gay faggots and watching Batman begins together. Which was actually very good. But it still doesn't change the fact that two guys watching a movie is damn gay. DEM GAY AH!!! And then Garry proceeds to remind me of the fact that we only have 1 week before school starts again. And i don't even feel like i've had a holiday...and that we have a shitload of undone homework and i am so screwed. PIAH TIME AHHHHHH!!!! BANZAI!!!!
But what really really sucks is the entrepreneurship competition...Usually each round ends at 12noon, the game is run, all our decisions are put through, then it's up again for the next round at 3PM, so being dilligent boys, we went in straight at 3PM, made the decisions and submitted, only to realise that at 4+PM, they put up an announcement saying that the game will be reset at 8PM and we will have until 12noon of the next day to submit. But since we already did, we didn't bother going back to double check and in the end we got so damn screwed...and we're now in debt and had to take emergency loans and all sorts of crap. I'm seriously very pissed off at the admin, the whole game has been very buggy and crappy, and we made it into the second round top of our group by dunnohowmuch thrashing all the others in the group and now due to this crap we're like dead last. What the hell... Seriously mun, i be pissed off.
Well that's about it for this week...been a looonggg hard week and next week is all set up for power piahing so i can finish off my homework. I really do need a holiday...i haven't had one for...12months now...jeez... :'( gimme a hug.
1 Year Anniversary at 1:39 AM
Friday, June 10, 2005
Sian.
1 Year Anniversary at 2:09 PM
Sometimes i feel so empty inside, even though i have so many things to do now, so many things on my mind that occupy my thoughts, i find myself not wanting to do them sometimes, not having the energy or the will to just sit myself down to study or finish my work anymore. Life is all about goals, setting short term goals and long term goals and working hard to achieve them, and even though i can see some goals in my life now, doing well for next semester, working hard to get better results, training hard to get that gold in National Schools, it seems like these are things i've done before, and somehow the fighting spirit and determination to achieve them has left me. It's very hard to explain...i just feel like my life is at a stalemate now, and nothing's moving, nothing exciting's happening, and i'm being eaten from the inside by boredom and a feeling of deja vu over and over again. That's why i always long to be in the company of friends, why whenever i have a free day i always try to find some of my close friends to go out with, or to come to my place, and now that the seniors are out of army, they do provide companionship too, but that's just a temporary comfort, i know that i have to set something right in my life first because something really isn't right... But i don't know what it is. Something is missing in my life but i just can't put my finger on it... I need something that will liven up my life again, and stop making me feel like i'm just going through the motion, because i've achieved all the goals i ever set out to achieve, the short term ones at least, and right now they just seem to be repititions over and over again, and there's no drive to achieve them again, because i already have.
Something needs to be done that's for sure...but what that something is remains to be seen, and i can only pray for guidance, especially in days like tomorrow...well...today actually, when i'm going to be home alone and bored...do i waste my time away on computer games and TV just to keep my mind occupied or do i do something more productive? Training camp's coming so i can't work out cos' i need to rest for it, so i guess i'll try to do my homework...yup...again, no kick. I really don't feel the sense of euphoria that i used to when i did well for my tests and assignments anymore. I don't even feel a need to do well anymore...like i said, going through the motion. And everything just seems to be one big wheel that keeps turning over and over again, showing me the same things...
*sigh*, hope it'll be over soon and i'll finally find some direction in life, something that i really want to work towards and really want to achieve, because i haven't felt it in a long long time... Dear Lord, my Heavenly Father, please guide me through these troubled waters and let this vessel of yours reach the safety of a shore that you have placed in it's path.
Something needs to be done that's for sure...but what that something is remains to be seen, and i can only pray for guidance, especially in days like tomorrow...well...today actually, when i'm going to be home alone and bored...do i waste my time away on computer games and TV just to keep my mind occupied or do i do something more productive? Training camp's coming so i can't work out cos' i need to rest for it, so i guess i'll try to do my homework...yup...again, no kick. I really don't feel the sense of euphoria that i used to when i did well for my tests and assignments anymore. I don't even feel a need to do well anymore...like i said, going through the motion. And everything just seems to be one big wheel that keeps turning over and over again, showing me the same things...
*sigh*, hope it'll be over soon and i'll finally find some direction in life, something that i really want to work towards and really want to achieve, because i haven't felt it in a long long time... Dear Lord, my Heavenly Father, please guide me through these troubled waters and let this vessel of yours reach the safety of a shore that you have placed in it's path.
1 Year Anniversary at 12:33 AM
Monday, June 06, 2005
OH YEAH!!! HARD WORK PAYS OFF MAN!!! WE'RE THE LEADERS OF OUR GROUP IN THE ENTREPRENEURSHIP COMPETITION AND WE'RE ALMOST DOUBLE THE REVENUE AND WE'RE 5 TIMES THE PROFITS COMPARED TO THE SECOND GROUP YEAH!!! WE KICK ASS!!!
Ok sorry for that outburst but i'm just really really happy, we really put like 10 hours into it already and we're probably gonna put in a lot more but i'm really happy that it all paid off for us. YAY!!! Thank God for blessing us and seeing us through this, and this really lifted my spirits when i was feeling down and out and all stressed up. Now got more energy already! haha!
Anyway, the kids came over just now, my nephews Ryan and Joel, they're really cute little tykes, i'll post some pics of them one day. Ryan's such a sweet little boy, i always wanna cuddle him and he's very generous with the hugs and kisses. Cute little rascal. But at times he can get quite bad, especially when the parents ask him to go home he'll go into a temper tantrum, but hey all kids do, i recall doing it when i was young too. Hope we get to see them more these few days, i haven't seen him for too long...stupid workload. sigh.
I always dreamt about the day when i have my own kids, my own little Lincolns, man that'd be a blessing to the world wouldn't it? Me finally passing on my genes :P Ok all bullshit aside, i really love kids a lot, i wanna have 4 when i grow up, 2 girls first, because they're more understanding and easier to take care of and altogether more considerate, and then when i'm a bit older and i have more experience in taking care of the rascals, 2 more boys, so that they'll all be able to have company with a member of the same sex at home and they'll have someone to talk to. I really look forward to the day when i can take my boys and girls and teach them how to ride a bicycle, teach my boys how to fish, let mom teach the girls how to...i was about to say sew but i realise that at the rate women are going now they probably won't even know how to cook so forget that. Anyway yeah, i really wanna have a big happy family when i grow up...i'll never marry anyone who doesn't want to have a lot of kids, i don't think i could survive in a childless or even a single child family, i really want a lot and a lot of kids!
Ok i sound like some senile fool right now so i'll stop and go back to DotA but hey, can't help but dream can I?:D
Ok sorry for that outburst but i'm just really really happy, we really put like 10 hours into it already and we're probably gonna put in a lot more but i'm really happy that it all paid off for us. YAY!!! Thank God for blessing us and seeing us through this, and this really lifted my spirits when i was feeling down and out and all stressed up. Now got more energy already! haha!
Anyway, the kids came over just now, my nephews Ryan and Joel, they're really cute little tykes, i'll post some pics of them one day. Ryan's such a sweet little boy, i always wanna cuddle him and he's very generous with the hugs and kisses. Cute little rascal. But at times he can get quite bad, especially when the parents ask him to go home he'll go into a temper tantrum, but hey all kids do, i recall doing it when i was young too. Hope we get to see them more these few days, i haven't seen him for too long...stupid workload. sigh.
I always dreamt about the day when i have my own kids, my own little Lincolns, man that'd be a blessing to the world wouldn't it? Me finally passing on my genes :P Ok all bullshit aside, i really love kids a lot, i wanna have 4 when i grow up, 2 girls first, because they're more understanding and easier to take care of and altogether more considerate, and then when i'm a bit older and i have more experience in taking care of the rascals, 2 more boys, so that they'll all be able to have company with a member of the same sex at home and they'll have someone to talk to. I really look forward to the day when i can take my boys and girls and teach them how to ride a bicycle, teach my boys how to fish, let mom teach the girls how to...i was about to say sew but i realise that at the rate women are going now they probably won't even know how to cook so forget that. Anyway yeah, i really wanna have a big happy family when i grow up...i'll never marry anyone who doesn't want to have a lot of kids, i don't think i could survive in a childless or even a single child family, i really want a lot and a lot of kids!
Ok i sound like some senile fool right now so i'll stop and go back to DotA but hey, can't help but dream can I?:D
1 Year Anniversary at 8:58 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Man when we signed up for the entrepreneurship competition we really didn't expect the workload to be so heavy, it really takes a lot of focus and careful calculations and planning to get a company running, we have to do the accounts, look at the sale trends calculate profit versus loss and expenses geez we're drowning here. Had to go to Nat's house again to do it cos' Alex and Yaozhen are out of the country, don't blame them, family's always the most important, but really puts a lot of workload on me and Alvin, bleh, anyway, we spent like 2 hours calculating and recalculating and planning and replanning my brain cells felt like they were slowly bursting one by one.
On the 410 back home i kept contemplating, gym or no gym? I feel so lazy and tired, but if i don't go i'll feel fat and unaccomplished. In the end forced myself to go and woo i feel good now. I dunno why but going to the gym always helps me destress and feel relaxed and happy after it all, maybe it's cos all my stress and energy gets pumped into the weights, or into my limbs when i run on the treadmill, but it always make me feel alive again. And of course there's the ego boost cos' the gym is full of mirrors and you get to see yourself in different angles *halo*. And other distractions of course. Which my close friends will know about. *nudge Alex* :P
Anyway been a tiring day and my muscles are all aching right now, but i feel good! Gonna take a bath now peeps, i'll catch ya later. Ciao.
On the 410 back home i kept contemplating, gym or no gym? I feel so lazy and tired, but if i don't go i'll feel fat and unaccomplished. In the end forced myself to go and woo i feel good now. I dunno why but going to the gym always helps me destress and feel relaxed and happy after it all, maybe it's cos all my stress and energy gets pumped into the weights, or into my limbs when i run on the treadmill, but it always make me feel alive again. And of course there's the ego boost cos' the gym is full of mirrors and you get to see yourself in different angles *halo*. And other distractions of course. Which my close friends will know about. *nudge Alex* :P
Anyway been a tiring day and my muscles are all aching right now, but i feel good! Gonna take a bath now peeps, i'll catch ya later. Ciao.
1 Year Anniversary at 7:46 PM